Shavin Sebah Ababekir
I have autism. I was born as a typical child. I behaved like everyone else, but over time, my behavior became strange and different. I couldn’t adapt to my surroundings, and nobody understood me. They kept trying to silence me, thinking their words and actions would make me happy and better. But they didn’t realize that what I have is not a problem — it is called autism. I am a child with autism, which many people misunderstand. Autism is not a disease but a disorder of brain development. This disorder has made me feel isolated from ordinary people. Although I may not be like you in every way, please let me guide you kindly. I will not harm you. Don’t run away from me or act as if I’ve committed a crime. I am an innocent child, and I am not at fault. Diversity and differences are part of life. Changes may happen, so follow me carefully. I might have too much eye contact (more than natural) or avoid looking into your eyes properly. You might think I don’t care about you because I seem more focused on objects. I also wave my hands to communicate. I give everything in my heart, even though my language is not organized like yours. It’s difficult for me to interpret letters and form words to express my needs and feelings. Without your help, I cannot learn and study like other children who wake up in the morning, go to school, and have a teacher who beautifully teaches reading and writing. Imagine my hands struggling to hold a pen correctly. I need help, and I get confused when I see a mathematical equation. My brain freezes until I can find a solution. I don’t always choose the right clothes, and I have repetitive behaviors that might seem bothersome to those around me. Loud noises make me sensitive — I cry quickly and feel afraid in crowded places. Despite this, I view everyone equally. Even if they are close to me, I may not have the same ability to form relationships with family, friends, or society. I can’t always play games because I don’t really have friends. People think I will harm them, but I don’t even know what harm is. I often feel lonely and sometimes choose to stay alone. I might even refuse to eat, which can cause other problems. It’s also challenging for me to distinguish between colors, shapes, and sizes. I often do things without following a typical process, but if you look at them through my eyes, you will see that everything is in its place. Yes, despite all these differences, I have a pure and beautiful heart and a face just like yours. I will not harm you. I love you, even though I may not fully understand what love is. Don’t look at me with judgment. When I make mistakes, correct me kindly and show me the right way. Help me fight this disorder because if I’m not treated properly, it will worsen and take control of my life. Please take my hand and do everything you can to help me. With your support, I can succeed and enjoy my life despite my challenges. I will thrive!
